I’ve ended up having a journal , I never thought it is necessary, not after a certain age but believe it or not it is a good thing because that is your safe space, is a you with you time, this is more and more rare today. We never have time for us, 90% of people are to busy, to busy to have a coffee, to cook, to have a bath instead of a shower, to read a proper book or even the newspaper. We all run around, to work, we run home, we eat in a rush most of the times standing in the kitchen, I for sure done this tonight and I’m doing it 99% of the times.

I’ve said this is about me and I’m making it about 90% of the people, maybe is not for everyone so let’s just concentrate and focus.

So me, I am like this, I don’t pay attention to a lot of stuff, I do everything in a rush, I don’t take time off for myself, if I take a bath I must be sick or is Christmas 😕, yes yes I know is sad but as I said it many times I like to help others, I make it my mission to be helpful, I still don’t have a answer to why I’m like this but maybe I’ll find it with you, all of you.

I do have to admit that I don’t like humans in general because they can be very aggressive, difficult, destructive, unpredictable, deceiving, miserable, bad, dangerous creatures and so on, but believe it or not with all this information and everything I’ve lived so far I’ve learned that something good can be found in us if you dig deep and if you are let in. I’m still hoping with everything going on in the world that we can be better, we can be better together . And there you go: hope dies last they say, I’ll probably hope till the day I die.

I’m far from being perfect or called an optimist, I’m neither an expert nor an optimist, I’m just a human that has been trying to live life to the fullest, I’m a good person, I think even my enemies can say this about me 😂, even though they will never recognise.

I am honest, I’m too direct ( people don’t like this anymore) , I’ll say to you what you don’t want to hear, I’ll be next to you if that happens and you brake down, I’m take time to get my stuff done, I don’t rush with other’s lives, I listen and if you need me to give you my attention and opinion I’ll will if not I’m just there for you.

Friendship is rare this days, we are surrounded by a lot of strangers ( I’m a stranger but I try not to that’s why this is me opening up, and I’ll answer to any questions), insecurities, mixed feelings, to many unwanted advices, unhappiness, sadness, consumerism, we buy a lot, we spend a lot, we don’t spend quality time.

I’m trying to fix this, I’m trying to fix me, I do this , everything I’ve just said I’ve done, I still do something because I’m human , but I want to learn , I want to be better and I want to enjoy life.

More to tell in the next chapter.

To be continued….